My hubby and me

My hubby and me

Sunday, June 21, 2015

Interview completed. Now we wait!

My husband had his interview and it went really well. Really well. It lasted TWO HOURS! He said he felt comfortable and it was really more of a conversation than an uptight interview setting. I was so happy to hear this and I am hoping that this could really be the one.

Unfortunately, the lady he interviewed with is on vacation this next week, so the soonest he might hear back would be the week of July 4th. If he is called back, there would be a follow-up interview with the director and a member of HR. This is torture. He feels confident about it and I am too. But the waiting game just really sucks. He has waited so long for an opportunity to come along and for a door to be opened. I know that a matter of days will not make or break him --- but I am anxious for him to be blessed with a job. This job, in particular, will capitalize on his education and experience while allowing him to learn new things as well.

God, I am nervous. I am anxious. I am praying hard that this is part of your plan. I cannot handle more disappointment for my husband. He is too smart, hardworking and brilliant to be sitting on the sidelines any longer. He needs a blessing, God. Please place your hands on him and this job situation. Surround my husband with strength, confidence, peace and the mentality to break out of this funk and claim this job. We believe in your power and pray that this will be the long awaited job blessing we have been asking for.

Thank you for all you've done and all you are going to do.

In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.

Friday, June 12, 2015

From cover letter to interview!

Randomly, my husband texted me yesterday to say, "Hey, I forwarded you an email. I need help with a response." When I opened the email, it was a job he had applied for asking for a detailed cover letter. Ok, I can do this. I can break out some brilliance for the sake of my boo. It took me all of 20 minutes to put it together and then I sent it back to him.

About an hour later...

He texts me again... only this time, to tell me that he had a 2:00 interview for Monday. Say what!?? I replied with a "Dang, my cover letter must've been bangin'!" - but in the back of my throat, I could feel tightness like tears would shortly follow. Could this be it? Could this finally be the blessing we have been praying for?

I pray for my husband... even more than I pray for myself... that this will be the opportunity that changes his situation and blesses him immensely. I pray this organization will be open, patient and accepting of my husband, his strengths and weaknesses and welcome his desire to work hard and do a good job. As much as I desire a new job, I have an even greater desire for my husband to find work and feel like he is successful at this point in his life.

Praying. Praying hard.

Thursday, May 7, 2015

Interceding on his behalf...

My husband is brilliant. He is hardworking. He is smart, independent and can learn things very quickly. If I can see these things, why can't everyone else?

My boo has been unemployed for almost two years. Why God? Why is it that frustration and the agonizing wait continue to plague my poor husband and, yet, his prayer for a job goes unanswered. We may be in between churches at the moment, but we pray often... when we do go to church, he is very diligent about tithing... and we do our best to live right...

For all of the blessings we have been given, this is one area that still isn't fixed. After so long without an answer to this prayer and doors continuously closing in your face, it is discouraging. So many days, I sit and cry, just wondering how I can make this right for him. Is there a way that I can help him or intercede on his behalf?

I try to pray here on an open forum - but it seems my prayers are repetitive and I grow frustrated when we see no results. Please assure us it won't be this way forever. My husband is too amazing not to have a solid career and a sense of accomplishment at the end of a long workday. I want that for him. I love him too much to sit idly by and watch him grow more and more discouraged.

Friday, February 13, 2015

I still don't understand...

God-

I became frustrated. I often do when I pray for something and I don't results or an answer to my prayer. My husband and I go through lulls of frustration as well as hopeful periods when we feel like a job is on the horizon for him. So far, we continue to be let down. Why? Why is it so damn hard for a brilliant, hardworking man to find a good job?

Rodney had a test yesterday. For a really good opportunity. It will be a few weeks before we know if he made the cut for an actual interview. Will they give him a chance? Will be discarded as he has been so many times before? Regardless of how much we've prayed, it's been over 2 years that he's been idle and without work. He is tired... and we are both clueless as to why.

After so many letdowns, it's hard to know what to pray. I just know my husband is worth more than this. He wasn't put here to do laundry, cook dinner or run errands for his wife. If he is where he is supposed to be, how long will it stay this way? At least, if we had children, there would be a purpose for him to be a stay-at-home husband/father. But that's a whole other prayer that hasn't been answered.

Where are you, God? Can you hear me? Are you listening? Help me understand your will or at least find peace in whatever your plans are for us. I just want my husband to be happy, have purpose and be satisfied with his life.

In Jesus' name I pray. Amen

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Why is it so hard?

God-

I know you are with us. Although not in my timing, you continue to come through for us - with finances, repairs, sickness. But there is still one area where we cannot get an answer or a blessing. Why is it so hard? Rodney got a couple of calls back to back - and now - we are back to silence.

I wish I knew how to pray. I wish I knew what to say that would convince you to bless my husband. I thought this prayer blog would work --- but so far, it hasn't. My poor husband has not worked in over two years. He is tired of getting cast aside, overlooked, ignored and given the brush off. What is wrong with people??

I wish I knew how to make things better for him. I wish I knew the right words to say. I wish I had a new refreshing way to encourage him. It seems the things I said in the beginning are no longer effective because nothing has changed. He deserves so much better than this.

Why, God? Why are we still struggling in this area? Help us understand...

He feels incomplete... less of a man... less of a husband... because he doesn't have a job and cannot provide for our family the way he wants to. If this is your will, then help us find peace with it and provide an outlet for Rodney to feel a sense of accomplishment again.

In Jesus' name I pray. Amen

Saturday, June 28, 2014

Where are you?

God-

I struggle to find the words to pray. I am so aggrivated with what is happening in our world right now. Between car repairs, home repairs and Rodney struggling to find work, something has to give. Where are you? These are the times when I am supposed to feel your presence the most. These are the times when you are said to be carrying me through the storm. Instead, I feel like I am in the eye of the tornado and the only thing keeping me halfway sane is my husband.

Lord, we are semi-patiently waiting to hear back from Rodney's recent job interview. Even though it is part time, it would be welcomed change. He would probably make as much or more money than what he currently brings in -- plus, he would be working again. He wants so much to feel like he is contributing and to be able to save for things we need/want. I pray you will make a way... please stop the disappointments and make something happen for him. He even applied for a job with another insurance company -- so we are totally open to that opportunity as well. We just need a break... We need your intervention... We need a blessing...

Even though it's hard, I know I must continue to pray for help and ask you to bless us. I must keep believing that a praying wife truly can make a difference.

In Jesus name I pray. Amen.

Sunday, June 1, 2014

Time away...

God-

I was getting frustrated, so I had to take a few days off. I couldn't pray. I didn't have the words to say. My heart was growing tired and my mind growing more bitter about my husband's job situation. I still feel frustrated, but I am striving to hold onto my faith and truly believe you have a plan in all of this.

Lord, help me to see you. Help me to accept whatever comes our way, even when it is not what we've hoped and prayed for. Help us to know in our hearts that you love us and are ultimately looking our for our best interest. When we continue to pray without any results, it is SO hard to remember those things.

Thank you for all you've done. For all you're doing. For all you will do. I'm trying to stay positive and continue to be strong for my husband -- but some days, it's just really hard.

I continue to lift up my husband --- praying you will move a mountain and make a way for him to start working again. Give me encouragement, confidence and support as he waits for a long-awaited answer to this prayer.

In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.