God-
I became frustrated. I often do when I pray for something and I don't results or an answer to my prayer. My husband and I go through lulls of frustration as well as hopeful periods when we feel like a job is on the horizon for him. So far, we continue to be let down. Why? Why is it so damn hard for a brilliant, hardworking man to find a good job?
Rodney had a test yesterday. For a really good opportunity. It will be a few weeks before we know if he made the cut for an actual interview. Will they give him a chance? Will be discarded as he has been so many times before? Regardless of how much we've prayed, it's been over 2 years that he's been idle and without work. He is tired... and we are both clueless as to why.
After so many letdowns, it's hard to know what to pray. I just know my husband is worth more than this. He wasn't put here to do laundry, cook dinner or run errands for his wife. If he is where he is supposed to be, how long will it stay this way? At least, if we had children, there would be a purpose for him to be a stay-at-home husband/father. But that's a whole other prayer that hasn't been answered.
Where are you, God? Can you hear me? Are you listening? Help me understand your will or at least find peace in whatever your plans are for us. I just want my husband to be happy, have purpose and be satisfied with his life.
In Jesus' name I pray. Amen
