I still don't understand...

God-

I became frustrated. I often do when I pray for something and I don't results or an answer to my prayer. My husband and I go through lulls of frustration as well as hopeful periods when we feel like a job is on the horizon for him. So far, we continue to be let down. Why? Why is it so damn hard for a brilliant, hardworking man to find a good job?

Rodney had a test yesterday. For a really good opportunity. It will be a few weeks before we know if he made the cut for an actual interview. Will they give him a chance? Will be discarded as he has been so many times before? Regardless of how much we've prayed, it's been over 2 years that he's been idle and without work. He is tired... and we are both clueless as to why.

After so many letdowns, it's hard to know what to pray. I just know my husband is worth more than this. He wasn't put here to do laundry, cook dinner or run errands for his wife. If he is where he is supposed to be, how long will it stay this way? At least, if we had children, there would be a purpose for him to be a stay-at-home husband/father. But that's a whole other prayer that hasn't been answered.

Where are you, God? Can you hear me? Are you listening? Help me understand your will or at least find peace in whatever your plans are for us. I just want my husband to be happy, have purpose and be satisfied with his life.

In Jesus' name I pray. Amen

Why is it so hard?

God-

I know you are with us. Although not in my timing, you continue to come through for us - with finances, repairs, sickness. But there is still one area where we cannot get an answer or a blessing. Why is it so hard? Rodney got a couple of calls back to back - and now - we are back to silence.

I wish I knew how to pray. I wish I knew what to say that would convince you to bless my husband. I thought this prayer blog would work --- but so far, it hasn't. My poor husband has not worked in over two years. He is tired of getting cast aside, overlooked, ignored and given the brush off. What is wrong with people??

I wish I knew how to make things better for him. I wish I knew the right words to say. I wish I had a new refreshing way to encourage him. It seems the things I said in the beginning are no longer effective because nothing has changed. He deserves so much better than this.

Why, God? Why are we still struggling in this area? Help us understand...

He feels incomplete... less of a man... less of a husband... because he doesn't have a job and cannot provide for our family the way he wants to. If this is your will, then help us find peace with it and provide an outlet for Rodney to feel a sense of accomplishment again.

In Jesus' name I pray. Amen

Where are you?

God-

I struggle to find the words to pray. I am so aggrivated with what is happening in our world right now. Between car repairs, home repairs and Rodney struggling to find work, something has to give. Where are you? These are the times when I am supposed to feel your presence the most. These are the times when you are said to be carrying me through the storm. Instead, I feel like I am in the eye of the tornado and the only thing keeping me halfway sane is my husband.

Lord, we are semi-patiently waiting to hear back from Rodney's recent job interview. Even though it is part time, it would be welcomed change. He would probably make as much or more money than what he currently brings in -- plus, he would be working again. He wants so much to feel like he is contributing and to be able to save for things we need/want. I pray you will make a way... please stop the disappointments and make something happen for him. He even applied for a job with another insurance company -- so we are totally open to that opportunity as well. We just need a break... We need your intervention... We need a blessing...

Even though it's hard, I know I must continue to pray for help and ask you to bless us. I must keep believing that a praying wife truly can make a difference.

In Jesus name I pray. Amen.

Time away...

God-

I was getting frustrated, so I had to take a few days off. I couldn't pray. I didn't have the words to say. My heart was growing tired and my mind growing more bitter about my husband's job situation. I still feel frustrated, but I am striving to hold onto my faith and truly believe you have a plan in all of this.

Lord, help me to see you. Help me to accept whatever comes our way, even when it is not what we've hoped and prayed for. Help us to know in our hearts that you love us and are ultimately looking our for our best interest. When we continue to pray without any results, it is SO hard to remember those things.

Thank you for all you've done. For all you're doing. For all you will do. I'm trying to stay positive and continue to be strong for my husband -- but some days, it's just really hard.

I continue to lift up my husband --- praying you will move a mountain and make a way for him to start working again. Give me encouragement, confidence and support as he waits for a long-awaited answer to this prayer.

In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.

Cannot understand...

God-

There's no next step. There's no live interview. That's the end.

Why? Why God? While a phone interview was long overdue in and of itself, why is that all he gets? I just don't even know what to say to my husband when I get home today because --- as frustrated and letdown as I am, I know what he feels is double or triple that.

I just cannot understand how people can pass him by so easily or not even allow him a real shot at a job. I'm so mad. I was starting to think this might finally be a turning point for him and now, we are back at square one. How long will it be until he receives another call? When will he get the chance to interview face-to-face and shine as bright as I know he can? Where is his job blessing, God?

I don't get it. I have to pull myself together and try to find some words of encouragement. But how do you encourage someone who has been through the ringer and is tired of trying? How do I find words of encouragement when I don't understand any of this myself?

Lord, take this frustration away and allow me to see what is behind it all. Give us hope that something better is out there for Rodney if we just hold onto our faith. Please give us a sign.

In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.

One call, that's all!

Lord-

Hear my prayer. Rodney did great with his phone interview yesterday. Now, we wait...

I got home just in time for Rodney's phone interview and I was listening proudly from another room. He was so nervous and so SWEATY -- but he did really good. The lady told him they would be contacting candidates for live interviews today. God, please let Rodney be one of them. I KNOW if they met him, they would be more willing to give him the opportunity.

God, you are always faithful and your hand is in every part of our lives. I just pray for a blessing today... that Rodney will receive a follow-up email or a call to schedule a face-to-face interview sometime next week.

Lord, whatever the outcome --- please give my husband the strength to handle it and give me the words of encouragement to support him.

Thank you for all you do. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.

Praying and praying hard!

God-

You are good. You work and you work fast. One day, Rodney is frustrated and coming upon 2 years with no movement and then, all of the sudden, a request for a phone interview changes everything. The phone interview is about an hour from now... I am anxious and hopeful all at the same time!

Lord, give Rodney the confidence to do well with his phone interview. Give him the right words to say, the demeanor and personality to impress and encouragement to shine brightly. This is a great opportunity - position, pay, location, etc. - and I believe if this is part of your plan, Rodney will get this job.

I know, if they met Rodney, they would be impressed by him -- but I pray they would be receptive to him today as well. God, I know you can move mountains and you can make things happen. I just pray that today is the day when the blessings begin to flow to create a great job opportunity for my husband.

Thank you God for all you do.

In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.